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We recorded this song in our living room in a few hours, with a single microphone hanging in a chandelier.


At first, I was struggling a write that fit the prompt I was given for the project. But eventually I was like, “just write something that comes easily, don’t try to force it.” I can never write songs I like when they’re forced. So when I stopped it finally worked. The song isn’t supposed to be about dying, even though it comes across that way. But as someone who sometimes deals with suicidal ideation, I guess I do sometimes find the idea of death alluring. I know it’s not what I really want and that it wouldn’t solve any problem I have. I want to be alive. Sometimes you just want a way to escape. And funnily enough, this song was commissioned by an Escape Room in Chicago!


Woman in black saying my name, 
Drinking my blood she sets the game,
She says the key to win is the breath
Of what she’s called, her name is "death"


Take the tools she hands to you,
Do just what she tells you to,
She leaves you waiting, feeling bereft 
She tells you that the key is "death"


Death as a woman, she smelled so sweet - 
In her arms I’d like to sleep
But baby, baby, is there nothing left?
Tell me the answer - oh! - the answer is death



released March 25, 2019
Chan: vocals, bass, lyrics
Emily: vocals, guitar
Kaitlyn: drums

Recording and mastering by Emily Ayden


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Porch Cat Bellingham, Washington

Porch Cat is the musical project of singer-songwriter, Chan Barraza, a queer, disabled Mexican-American. Through uptempo punk songs, sludgy ballads, and dreamy pop hooks, Porch Cat writes about queer identity, pain and chronic illness, surviving abuse and assault, colonization and racism - ultimately returning to themes of love and empowerment. ... more


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