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Live @ the Firefly Lounge

by Porch Cat

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1.
I tried to wash you off like a Sunday morning Of mowing lawns and weeding gardens Bleeding from the thorns that are growing here I tried to write you off when I heard you coming Like a burning car, like I went running The only way I knew was very far You wanna say I'm wrong It's not like you so I must be wrong So if you wanna say I'm wrong You get to be in a song Aren't you special? I feel like a TV set, static glitching Volume up and screen projecting Making sure I'm light years away You threw me off, didn't see you coming So I shut off, and began re-numbing All the parts of me you tried to break You wanna say I'm wrong It's not like you so I must be wrong If you wanna say I'm wrong You get to be in a song Aren't you special? If you wanna say I'm wrong You get to be in a song Aren't you special?
2.
Must be a medical mystery Even though it's hard to see I know it's scary that we don't know just What these tests show You've got a rare disease Of the tissues and disrupted sleep Chronic pain, it fills your spine Live with it, you're not dying So you try to hold on Even though it's your job To schedule your life away Appointments every day Sometimes it's hard to eat When I tell jokes, I get weak I crack my knuckles loud My body echoes the sound You know I'm sick as fuck Feel like I got hit by a truck But it's just from waking up After fourteen hours of sleep So you try to hold on Even though it's your job To schedule your life away Appointments every day So you try to hold on Even though it's your job To get through the symptoms here Try to do all the things you fear You won't do in a year
3.
Straight boy thinks it’s kind of weird that you have pride When you say you’re breaking up he acts like love has died He can't be with someone he can’t change And you can’t be with someone who won’t call you by your name He likes your hair a little longer He can’t stand you being stronger Stab your own thigh, watch it bleed Just get this boy away from me I can’t be the girl of your dreams I don’t even know what that means Am I a man or am I a queen? I keep dreaming we got married Or we find each other after all these years I keep dreaming all the bad things The hiding and the fucking fears Of being hated for being me Of being hated for being me Of being hated for being me Of being hated for being me I can’t be the girl of your dreams I don’t even know what that means Am I a man or am I a queen? When you’re dreaming of me I’m dreaming of a girl She looks like heaven to me She looks like the whole world I can’t be the girl of your dreams I don’t even know what that means Am I a man or am I a queen? I don’t even know what that means I can’t be the girl of your dreams I don’t even know what that means Am I a man or am I a queen? Am I a man or am I a queen? I’ll be your man, yeah I’ll be your queen
4.
Pain! (live) 02:28
Fingers, ankles, head and spine I’m gonna lose my goddamn mind If I can't smoke away this pain Sometimes I think I’m in too deep But no one else sleeps how I sleep My dreams keep eating at my brain I am pulling the teeth out of my head to dull the ache I am pulling out all of my hair to stay awake Lipstick sigil on my lips A prayer for my troubled hips A spell to keep the doubt at bay They will tell you that you lie They will tell you that you’re fine Cause they can’t take away your pain I am pulling the teeth out of my head to dull the ache I am pulling out all of my hair to stay awake
5.
I found them with my mind I want them all to die I found them with my mind I want BAD MEN TO DIE I want bad men to die I want bad men to die There are so many things that you can do There are so many things they took away from you Anger and pain can keep you down, down, down You can’t help feel like they’ve trapped you in that town I'll take them with my mind Make them see all their greatest fears I’ll take them with my mind I want BAD MEN TO DIE I want bad men to die I want bad men to die
6.
I'm pulling out my hair counting the days I've thought up how to die in half a million ways I saw your pictures floating on my screen I wanted to cry I wanted to scream Cause when you lose your sense of self You become somebody else Take the pieces you've found back And reclaim My fingertips are bleeding I bite my lips I just can't help the feeling, I want to resist Tell all your friends I'm crazy, like most other girls Well I don't care if you hate me, you make me wanna hurl Cause when you lose your sense of self You become somebody else Take the pieces you've found back And reclaim Reclaim If you told my friends what you told me They would hate you too But if you're feeling kind of lonely I guess that means that you should call me So if you're feeling kind of lonely Don't think that you should ever call me I never wanted to be your girlfriend I never wanted to do the things that you wanted to do I never wanted to be your boyfriend I never wanted to be around you but I felt like I had to When you lose your sense of self You become somebody else Take the pieces you've found back And reclaim Reclaim If you told my friends what you told me They would hate you too But if you're feeling kind of lonely I guess that means that you should call me So if you're feeling kind of lonely Don't think that you should ever call me
7.
We went swimming in the bay And I couldn’t look away I fell in love with you I’ve been staring into space The constellations on your face You take me to the moon Your beauty is arresting But I think maybe the best thing Is when you’re being you It turns me on x4 Hey! You wear your heart on your sleeve That’s the way things should be I wouldn’t change a thing Give yourself a chance Baby, you know you can dance And damn right you can sing You’re learning how to love yourself Learning how to not be someone else God I love you being you It turns me on x8 Hey!

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Recorded/mixed by Brendan Silk (Silk Sound) at The Firefly Lounge on March 6th, 2019.

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released March 23, 2019

Chan: vocals, bass
Emily: guitar, vocals
Kaitlyn: drums

Album art by Chan Benicki.

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Porch Cat Washington

Porch Cat is a DIY, queer, folk punk band from Washington, fronted by Chan B and accompanied by Emily Ayden. Chan's raw, honest lyrics and unique vocals define the bands sound, while their partner, Emily Ayden, brings thoughtful vocal harmonies along with a driving and melodic guitar to round it out. Porch Cat is a project that strives to connect with and empower marginalized people through music. ... more

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