Heartlines

by Porch Cat

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released September 20, 2014

Mastered by Moonie

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Porch Cat Bellingham, Washington

Chan Barraza Benicki started Porch Cat as a acoustic singer-songwriter project in 2011. Benicki is a queer xicanx living in Bellingham, WA. Besides being a musician, they are an artist, poet, educator, and advocate for awareness for invisible and chronic illness, disability, LGBTQ+ issues. Porch Cat is currently: Chan Benicki (bass/vox), Moony Marrow (drums/vox), and Molly Smith (guitar). ... more

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Track Name: Bitter
I'm a heart shaker
I take and quake
I'm bitter

I'm a headacher
I make and I fake
I'm bitter

oh love never did me no good
Not like the way loneliness could

Well my head is a bundle
Yes I'm on the run
I'm bitter

I'm a heart shaker
I take and quake
I'm bitter
I'm bitter
I'm bitter
Track Name: Jacky Bones
Em
Jacky Bones you walked in the saloon
B7
Ready to howl at the moon
Em
You’re afraid you can’t handle change
B7
I’m not like you so I must be insane

C G Am
Oh, don’t you close your eyes
Em B7
Jacky Bones, don’t close your eyes
Em
Don’t close your eyes

Jacky Bones, you’re looking at your cards
But that hand won’t get you very far
You’re alright with black white and red
But other colors go over your head

Oh, don’t you close your eyes
Jacky Bones, don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes

Instrumental

C G B7 Em
While you’re howling at the moon
C G B7
We might come storming in to steal your silver spoon
C G B7 Em
We don’t mean you no pain
C G B7
But we won’t let you take our souls away

C G Am
Em B7
Jacky Bones, don’t close your eyes
Em
Don’t close your eyes

Jacky Bones, you’re threatened to the core
On our words you’re waging war
You’re shaking in your boots, you’re confused
By the way we voice our strange views

Oh, don’t you close your eyes
Jacky Bones, don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Jacky Bones, don’t close your eyes
Don’t close your eyes
Track Name: Magic
G Em D
We took our fears from their boxes
Planted them a grave
I howled all night with the foxes
In those moments I was saved

I don’t know where the friends have gone
And I’m not sure how I’m feeling
And the moon is shining like the sun
And my face is too revealing

Em D G
I wish there was magic in the way
I move from town to town
Em D G C
I’d cast a spell on your broken heart
Em D G
But I’m better left unfound
I’m better left unfound

The planets have aligned here
In the palms of my hands
And my eyesight is a bit unclear
I see it all in strands

I’m too lonely for a sacrifice
I heard my body say
When the ocean all turns to ice
Maybe then I’ll stay

And I wish there was magic in the way
I move from town to town
I’d cast a spell on your broken heart
But I’m better left unfound
I’m better left unfound

And I wish there was magic in the way
I move from town to town
I’d cast a spell on your broken heart
But I’m better left unfound
I’m better left unfound
I’m better left unfound
Track Name: Coming Out
A E
It was a secret to be hidden from my mother
And my father told me not close any doors
So I didn’t say a word and I left the doors wide open
Well your baby has been torn

I kissed her in secret by my house
Scared someone might see
But I realized that moment she was better than a secret
And she was better than I could ever be

F#m A E
Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
We didn’t know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit
F#m E A
Until we tried to fix it

We broke up in February, the boy in college
He touched me by I never touched him
I wondered if that’s how it’d be
Saying I love you when I still couldn’t fucking breath

I called you many years later saying her name
And you told me you didn’t understand, it was a phase
Oh, I wish I had been braver when she held my hand
If love is a phase then a phase is what I am

F#m A E
Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
We didn’t know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit
F#m E A
We didn’t know until we tried to fix it

Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
They say it gets better it gets better it gets better
But rain always keeps getting wetter

Coming out was never coming home
Running away from the things I had known
We didn’t know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit
We didn’t know until we tried to fix it
Track Name: Heartlines
B E

The measurements that make me up
Don’t fit inside a measuring cup
When everyone is questioning
I always end up wondering
Cause nothing that I am is right
So I guess this is what they call a fight

I’ve spent so much time trying to figure out my bloodlines
And how to love and how to be alive

I wrote a letter to myself
Burn the books that line the shelf
Cause hating all the things I am
Could never make me a better man than him
Cut my hair and not my arms
Don’t forget to look at the stars
There’s so much that I should have said
While I was laying, bleeding in that bed

I’ve spent so much time trying to figure out my bloodlines
And how to love and how to be alive
Take all the time trying to figure out your heartlines
And how to love and how to be alive
Take all the time trying to figure out your heartlines
And how to love and how to be alive
Take all the time trying to figure out your heartlines