We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Summer​/​Winter

by Porch Cat

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.
    Purchasable with gift card

      name your price

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    CD in a brown kraft sleeve with digitally printed album art on front.
    International orders will receive a CD-r in a black cd sleeve due to shipping costs.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Summer/Winter via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 20 days

      $10 USD or more 

     

  • T-Shirt/Apparel + Digital Album

    Block printed by hand in Washington State. Colors are rotating.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Summer/Winter via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 14 days

      $5 USD or more 

     

  • Full Digital Discography

    Get all 18 Porch Cat releases available on Bandcamp.

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of Helena (My Chemical Romance Cover), I LOVE Y'ALL [A Folk Punk Cover Album], Broken Body (Demo), In The Garden I Will Learn To Grow (Demo), Time of Year, 2019 Demos, 500 Days of Bummer (Unreleased Songs from 2019), DEATH AS A WOMAN, and 10 more. , and , .

    Purchasable with gift card

      $2 USD or more

     

1.
C E7 Am E7 F G C E Am All I want the most right now is to run into the wild Find myself happy, free, and in love I’d hold your hand as we dive into the ocean Cold as hell and hard to breath, but that’s just how I’d want it to be How else would you know you’re alive? How else would you know you’ll survive? I was born in a hospital and that’s probably where I’ll die But if I had it my way, I’d be hopping trains Screaming so loud my body shakes Leaving just to prove that I was here How else would you know you’re alive? How else would you know you’ll survive?
2.
Storm Chaser 03:16
I’ve grown claws, and dug scars And I can’t close my eyes without help I’ll swallow all the stars Just to have something to tell So someday I’ll be chasing storms And someday I’ll be free And someday I’ll be chasing storms And I’ll be living in my dreams I’m hearing sirens from my window And I’d rather hear the wind I’ve lived in a house my whole life And the thing about life is it’s got to begin I’ve often feigned passion, but I’ve never felt Something stronger than the urge to pack Plant my roots somewhere else And never look back And someday I’ll be chasing storms And someday I’ll be free And someday I’ll be chasing storms And I’ll be living in my dreams
3.
C F G F G C One day my father told me People who always need company Are the people who can’t stand themselves Well, I’m good at bullshitting I’m good at telling lies And I’m good at falling in love But I am my father’s daughter And I’m better at being alone I cut my own hair in the morning But I don’t roll my own cigarettes If I ever started smoking, I would I believe in love and peace And in the devil, but not in god I believe in being free and anarchy I am my father’s daughter And I’m better at being alone
4.
Liar's Blues 04:07
A Dm F E I am a liar And I can’t keep my temper And I could get higher But I wouldn’t come down And I’m full of feelings And I’m full of shit And I’ve been thinking of stealing The moon So once I find it, I’ll stop walking Take off my coat, kick off my shoes I’ve never been one for staying And I could never sing the blues I am a liar But I’ll give you nothing but truth I’ll start a fire To burn myself down And I’m full I’m full of dreams But I can never recall Because I never sleep Once I find it, I’ll stop walking Take off my coat, kick off my shoes I’ve never been one for staying And I could never sing the blues
5.
F A7 Dm A7 Bb Dm A7 Dm C Well, here I am I’m naked and Waiting for a sign But I’m always on the wrong side of the road I don’t catch myself and sometimes I Black out, space out Hit the gas when my eyes have closed My sleep patterns don’t match with yours So I lay here Waiting for my mind to dim I’m aching and I’m out of breath But my thoughts wander I’ll go anywhere, just don’t wanna be where I’ve been Let’s go to the end of the earth Take on the night sky ‘til we’re covered in dirt Break down the walls that tell us we can’t sleep in parking lots And then we can be free I’ve always been good at wanting To leave My legs and heart and mind grow restless and weak The only thing I know about myself is that I’m always changing And I’ve been living too long on the same damn street
6.
Capo 2 G Am C G Am Em C Lately I’ve been dreaming in color But it’s hard for me to get to sleep And I like to tell people secrets If only to hear the secrets that they all keep And I need to feel the weather sometimes And it’s good to know that I’m not alone Lately I’ve been waiting for the creatures to crawl in Through the window where they wait for me And as a kid I was never scared of monsters But I was scared of ghosts and that my heart would no longer beat And I need to feel the weather sometimes And it’s good to know that I’m not alone And sometimes when my heart skips a beat, I wonder if I’m dying or if I’m asleep And we all need to give a little love and time
7.
I'm looking for something I can't find I'm drowning in the warmth of wine I need something to feel I need something to feel
8.
Am Am C G Am Am C E7 C E7 Am E7 C E7 Am F My fingers started aching when the sky turned My teeth and my knees dull, oh how my stars burned You left my window wide open, and it’s cold Your voice cracked in my ears as you watched me unfold I am so young, now, And sometimes I get scared I feel so small, here, So lay me down, lay with me My guilt follows me and I swallow it down The ghosts in my head beat in every old town My words echo slowly as I begin, “Forgive me, forgive me, for I have sinned” And lord knows I’m still A child I feel so small, here, So lay me down, lay with me And when I struck, I know you hurt like hell I carry your heart And I’m far from well And when I struck, I hope you felt my eyes Hear me, hear me now I beg for your light Let me take back my hands Fill them with my love They never belonged in anger You should know
9.
Am G C Am F C G I’ve been sitting in my bedroom Sleeping for days, but my bed feels empty I'm tired of keeping still, If I don’t burn this down, who will? My head’s aching all the time I’ve been silent but my throat burns Old man winter’s got me down His hand on my throat and my back on the ground Haven’t been eating much and haven’t been eating right I’m awake in the morning ‘cause I can’t sleep at night Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest The sound of hail has got me freezing The charm of hell is not beyond reason Drive across the state in snow Aimless ‘til I find somewhere to go Sometimes I want to scream Until my throat is numb and I can’t breathe Sometimes I want to run away Find the desert, find the sun someday Haven’t been eating much and haven’t been eating right I’m awake in the morning ‘cause I can’t sleep at night Addicted to the substance of delusion and distress Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest Haven’t been eating much and haven’t been eating right I’m awake in the morning ‘cause I can’t sleep at night If freedom is the answer, then achieving it’s the test Addicted to the way my heart beats in my chest
10.
G Cadd9 Em I’ve been missing the things I don’t remember I’ve been reliving the things that I do When I don’t eat for hours, I don’t get hungry The nausea keeps me from wanting food I’m afraid of sleeping, cause I’m afraid of waking I’m afraid of eating, cause I’m afraid of puking When I go to bed, I feel empty When I wake up, I feel the same When I get tired, I don’t feel like sleeping Cause the nausea keeps me from having dreams I’m afraid of doing things that make me laugh I’m afraid of doing things that distract me Cause I’m afraid that when I do them I’ll still feel And that nothing will seem very funny I’m afraid of sleeping, cause I’m afraid of waking I’m afraid of eating, cause I’m afraid of puking I’m afraid of living, cause I’m afraid of dying I’m afraid of sleeping, cause I’m afraid of waking
11.
D A G D A G D When I was a kid, I had a dream where I was on a school bus And the driver was a skeleton, and he drove us Off the edge of the high way and into the sky Now when I’m driving, I fantasize I am the skeleton, driving straight off the curve into the sun I am the dream, with the wheel in my fists while I’m on the run Maybe if I tear apart the things I thought were true I’d find the things I need, I’d find something new Maybe my jaw will come apart and my words will fall right out Maybe my teeth will rot away and I’ll have to live without The things that make me hungry in an awful, painful way And I will let myself live purely each day
12.
C F Am C F Am C F you said, “I’m sorry for the things we do not know” well, darling, it’s okay I’m still just a kid and I’m still scared of the world but I grow every day but I still worry about the ways I stay the same I want to go somewhere that don’t feel like where I’ve been Drive with a plan to get lost I can’t help but feel a little tired of this place ‘cause freedom comes at a cost and I worry about the ways I sell my soul Mother said that peace and love are the same as sex, drugs, and rock and roll I don’t know about that I don’t know about that But it makes me feel better

about

summer: 1-6
transition: 7
winter: 8-13

Almost a year has gone by since I started writing these songs last summer. I hope you enjoy them.

DIY bedroom music. If you can donate, I'd think you're totally rad (money goes towards food, shelter, and traveling to a town near you). It's free for a reason, though, so have at it.


Thank you, thank you, thank you.

credits

released March 20, 2013

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Porch Cat Washington

Porch Cat is a DIY, queer, folk punk band from Washington, fronted by Chan B and accompanied by Emily Ayden. Chan's raw, honest lyrics and unique vocals define the bands sound, while their partner, Emily Ayden, brings thoughtful vocal harmonies along with a driving and melodic guitar to round it out. Porch Cat is a project that strives to connect with and empower marginalized people through music. ... more

contact / help

Contact Porch Cat

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account

Porch Cat recommends:

If you like Porch Cat, you may also like: